I don’t want another relationship I have to heal from.
Time. Space. Distance.
Far away and apart where it’s safe, where you can’t hurt me anymore.
Knowing my place–never first–playing my role,
Quiet resignation; Yes,
It’s better this way.
In fighting to let go, I found solace in the belief that the Universe is looking out for me; that everything that has happened and will happen is for my well-being, my good, my happiness. Everything is as it should be. More so, everything is for my greater good. If something was bad, the Universe provides something good. If something was good, the Universe provides something better. I can finally release my expectations and their accompanying disappointments, and drive out the specters from my tormented heart.
Current state: Acceptance, peace, and gratitude.
Some chapters just have to close without closure. Straight up. That broken thing you keep trying to put back together is keeping your life from that beautiful thing that’s waiting to be built. God loves you too much to answer a prayer that’s going to leave you hurt. You deserve better.
I’m most homesick for that place we met when we needed each other most, supported each other, yearned for and loved each other
and then something shifted in him and he moved, in a most conspicuous way, far away from me seemingly without a care, leaving me craving something he refuses to give in to while he struggles to remember things I will never forget…
Love shouldn’t have to be provoked, should it? Or coaxed?
“Who do I have to be to get some reciprocity?”
Sometimes we’re so busy wanting something that we don’t take the time to consider if it’s something worth wanting.
Funny how things I don’t pursue elude me still.
What if everything I believe is wrong?
“What would you do if you weren’t afraid?”
- Quit my job to do what I love.
- Love boldly.
- Travel alone.
- Actively pursue my happiness.
- Express my feelings openly without fear of judgment or rejection.
- Allow myself to be open, unguarded, and receptive.
- Create and uphold standards that validate my worth.
- Dream BIG!